The lack of tutors
The lack of tutors
I had never thought that I could use a tutor, after all, my problem did not lie on sciences but in philosophy, ethics and history; my parents kept telling me that I had such problems because I did not pay sufficient attention nor did I learn by heart what I needed to know prior to each examination. I swear I did try, each and every single time, but I had no success.
When I was a young child I was determined I wanted to grow up and be a lawyer. I longed to be part of the world of law and quarreling. I used to dress up and pretend that I was a famous lawyer and that I was going to uphold the law and the works; my mother always saw me with worried eyes while other boys were dreaming of being firefighter or policemen I wanted to be a lawyer.
But as I grew and realized that ethics, history and philosophy were just friends with me, that childhood dream slowly slipped into oblivion and I chose to become something entirely different: An accountant. Of course, accounting has ethics as do the rest of the professions, ethical behavior is something that most professions are very into it; but I managed to pass it through and somehow survive. I guess that it was mainly because the career director saw that I was really good with numbers and that is was going to be a shame to loose it all –including the student loan money, just because I did not like ethics.
So I graduated and looked for an accounting job. Then something happened; I worked with a person who really, really liked to be an accountant; he was so different from me that I was shocked. I always thought that work was something so repulsive that it was the reason for it to be paid, otherwise no one would do it; and I always thought that a profession was something that was going to give you money, not something that you would actually enjoy doing.
But my coworker was happy, he actually enjoyed being an accountant. I asked him what was it that made him fall so in love with his profession and he told me that it was the tutoring that he had; in it he learned that he did not have to be afraid of numbers and it helped him to understand and master them. I ponder on that and decided to take a tutoring course on my three archenemies; I mastered them and now, I wonder, if I had mastered them sooner, would I have still made the same choices.
